Training.

I woke up today, because I heard the front door closing, I thought it was mum, so I quickly rushed out for her because I wanted money to go to school for training.
It was dad, waste my time to open my eyes, to jump down from bed, to run to the door, to open the door, to look out):

Just so you know, I have a double-decker bed. It's hard to rush.

Breakfast was mommy's maccaroni and Shiqins Briko(?), you know the cute-square-little-thing that's edible:D

Training was depressing.

I dont even know if that's the word to describe tiring+stressful+fun+full of quarrels+tension.

It just happens sometimes yeah. I wonder why, sometimes it's just so hard to stop doing silly things,doing the antennae on my head during the training, sending kisses to Nurin while coach is explaining. Pfft, the coach doesn't know how to control the team.

Nobody controls me anyway.

Ooooh, Fatin taught me a sexy way of talking in the toilet while we were doing our hair(:

Going to Pearl Delight was full of crap, we laughed and crapped around.

"I WANT MORE NIPPLESSS!" (inside joke!)

&I don't understand people sometimes. I try so hard, but all I get is shit.

Sometimes, just saying sorry isn't enough, go put some effort into it. I know it's been hard kay.

It's been hard on me too, but you once told me to stay strong despite everything.

I wonder why things has to turn out like this. I didn't want things to be this way, but it's just so

hard to forgive. It's so hard to know the fact that you pushed me away when I just wanted to be merely friends. Was that wrong? Was that inappropriate? Was that a mistake?

I'm sorry to say that I hate-d you, it was a moment of haste.

Please try to understand. I, too, want things to be the way they were then, but it's too late to regret.

I still want you to be my listening ear, I still want to tell you things.

There's a whole lot to tell you, but I just don't know where to start.

But things cannot be the same way, that, is a fact.

I'm sorry.

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